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Atelophobia
The word sticks to my tongue like cotton candy
The sweet, fluffy combination of letters
struggling to embody a correct connotation
And even the dictionary definition seems sugarcoated:
"Fear of imperfection."

Is that what they say when I'm up until 3am,
editing my English paper for the umpteenth time
The tick-tock tick-tock of the clock
promptly proliferating the room
And I just sit there changing good to great,
and peaceful to quiescent,
hoping that my teacher will be drunk in his bungalow
while he grades my chicken-scratch calligraphy
And he’ll see stars instead of how horrid it is

Or is that the word they use,
when I struggle to consume a 25-calorie chunk of chocolate
because I just know it will go straight to my hips,
or when I step on the scale
and watch the black dashes zoom by
like a carousel spinning,
And as the twirling and whirling makes me sick,
I know throwing up still won’t make me thin

And is that the term they mutter
when I'm sobbing in the bathroom stall,
as salty pools collocate on my sweat sodden jersey,
because I came in second in my race
And even though I ran 10 seconds faster than last time,
the silver medal bangs and bounces on my chest
to the melancholy mantra: second is the first to lose

But it’s not even the dulcet scent emitted by
the cotton candy word and definition
that makes me sick, that makes the word stick
Because even a cracked sidewalk
has flowers growing from its imperfections:
It's the fear that I'll never be good enough.
Atelophobia, I knew I would write a poem about it when I read that word. So this is my second poem written in two days, what what. Guess I have a bit of extra time on my hands. ;D I hope you enjoy this, as I think it is one of my favorites thus far.
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alphagirly13 Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
2015YupiANanEmoteGIF00202 yas
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Heeeeeheee :heart:
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alphagirly13 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:3
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BloodxInkedxPen Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Wonderful work! c':
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU :D
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BloodxInkedxPen Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
:') No problem!
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WalMartMakesYouCrazy Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2015
Gosh, I just realized that I haven't commented on this yet... Hmm... WE'LL HAVE TO FIX THAT

Oh my gosh, da feels! I think that this is my new favourite piece of writing... OF ALL TIMEJudge 
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Aw so glad you enjoyed it!!! I am quite proud of it!!! :)
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You should be! It's a stunning piece of writing :D
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KatanaOngaku Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:cry: 
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:heart:
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RayTheFilipinoGwaiLo Featured By Owner Edited Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Lament of the Asian kid.
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
aw oh my. That is hilarious and true. >.<
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RainbowyHeart Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2014
Reading this poem and the comments, I find relief knowing that I am not alone in my perfectionistic tendencies. Sometimes I will put myself down if I have made even the slightest mistake or if I suspect that others will not approve because I have not done the best I could possibly do. It's makes it so much harder to enjoy life when I am constantly picking out things that are wrong with me. I am my own worst enemy. But when I let go of the fear,atelophobia is merely the drive to succeed and overcome any obstacles...so, depending on how I look at it, it is also a gift. My parents tell me all the time that I have nothing to fear but fear itself. Without fear nothing stands in my way. Without fear I am invincible. I have truly been inspired by your words. Your writing is so full of passion and it leaves a strong impression on my soul. Wonderful work!
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I agree, I am my own worst enemy as well. Most of the problems are self-induced, over thinking situations that should be simplified! I am so glad to hear my words inspired you, and that it left an impression. I hope you now can help anyone else who over thinks and believes perfection is necessary! Stay rad, sunshine! :)
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RainbowyHeart Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2014
<3 Thank you! A simple life is a good life. :)
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belarusian Featured By Owner Edited Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I know. I have atelophobia. It's hell.
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:/ Sorry sunshine! Try to fight through it, and use it to make you better, not stressed!
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SarcasticCupcake5 Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I would just like to thank you for writing the perfect description of my existsnce, this poem is amazing.
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Awe you are too sweet, hun. I am glad you could relate though! You are amazing, just the way you are. :)
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belarusian Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Crying Mako 
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Jul 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU I THINK? hahha :)
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otherland78 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2014
that there is even a word for it ..........
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
EXACTLY.
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L0liB0y-an0n Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2014
If only those who suffer would just realize how amazing it is to be liberated from those thoughts. <3 finally free
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Gah, but isn't it hard to break a habit of seeking perfection? But I so agree with you! :)
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L0liB0y-an0n Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2014
Yeah it probably took 3 years to get where I am now, and it's still a work in progress. I have lots of people to thank for it <3 I wouldn't be making so much progress if not for the friends I've made this year~
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Beautiful!
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU!! :D
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome!
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WordOfChen Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Professional Writer
An interesting work based on a definiton :'3

Well done ^^

-Chennie :iconwordofchen:
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks! <3
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 12, 2014
This is amazing. The 2nd and 4th paragraph really ring true for me; you captured that feeling almost perfectly. Thanks for sharing and letting all of us that glimpse into the mind of a perfectionist. I know how hard it is. Never stop writing, and never give up.
Thanks again for posting, 
Ava
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 13, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! :) haha, and no problem! >.<
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 13, 2014
Your welcome, but its nothing more than you deserve. Thank you for sharing this part of your self, I know how hard that is. I look forward to seeing what else you post!
Ava
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ShaierizNiflheimer Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I really love the last line!!
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks!! I do too! >~<
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MrBlubbs3252 Featured By Owner May 7, 2014
This is absolutely gorgeous and truthfully written I can truthfully connect to this masterpiece your astonishing words gracefully dance across the page as this poem is smooth beginning to end
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Awww, thank you so much!! I am so so glad you enjoyed it! :)
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MrBlubbs3252 Featured By Owner May 7, 2014
You are very truly positively welcome
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noelmaghathephoto Featured By Owner May 4, 2014   Photographer
So amazing! I'm in love with all of your work~~ 
How long does it usually take you to write a poem?
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU SO MUCH! :D Ummm, it depends. I usually sketch down ideas whenever I think of something, even if it is just a line or phrase, and then work on them in my classes or free time and such. Some are worked on for weeks, and some develop in minutes (as in the super short ones). :)
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noelmaghathephoto Featured By Owner May 4, 2014   Photographer
You're welcome!~ sorry for posting twice it didn't even say it commented at all earlier!
but ahh I love all your work i want to write poetry so badly!!! just curious on your process! 
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hahha, that is fine! Literally, just do it! Write what you feel, what you see, what you dream to do, and you can't go wrong! :)
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noelmaghathephoto Featured By Owner May 5, 2014   Photographer
I've been trying!!!! :) (Smile) Hug 
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Aww yayay! :hug:
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noelmaghathephoto Featured By Owner May 4, 2014   Photographer
So amazing! I'm in love with all of your work~~ 
How long does it usually take you to write a poem?
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brokenglass16 Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Student Writer
Beautifully written. 
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Tangled-Tales Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
THANK YOU! :)
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Kreatress Featured By Owner May 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I can totally relate to this. 
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